Do They See Jesus In Me

Is the face that I see in the mirror
The one I want others to see
Do I show in the way that I walk in my life
The love that You’ve given to me
My heart desires to be like You
In all that I do, all that I am

Mirrorbaby_1Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize Your
Do I communicate Your love
And Your grace
Do I reflect who You are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus
in me

It’s amazing that You’d ever use me
But use me the way You will
Help me to hold out a heart of compassion and grace
A heart that Your spirit fills
May I show forgiveness and mercy
The same way You’ve shown it to me

Well I wanna show all the world
That You are the reason I live and breathe
So You’ll be the one that they see
When they see me

~ Pete Carlson / Amy Roth ~

PS: Special thanks to Xin Qi who told me about this song.  It has been such a blessing to me. GBU… ^_^

July 21, 2003

Djufrie1Kel1_1I woke up that day like any other day
Going to the office, earn a living
Business as usual…
Until I received a dreaded phone call:
"Ben, our dad is no more. He’s gone home."

Like hearing thunder in the middle of the day
Speechless, I quickly stood up in a daze

Are you kidding me?
How come, what happened?
God, is it for real?
This can’t be real!
I talked to him on the phone the other night
He was lying on the hospital bed
Still, he said "Things are going to be ok.
It’s nothing serious, God will heal me"
Then how come You didn’t heal him, God?!

My heart filled with anguish, frustration
We have prayed for healing all these time
And yet… God’s had His own plan

My mind began to race
I had to get home… right away!
I had to get to the bottom of this

"I need to buy a ticket to JKT now."
"Only first class seats available, sir."
"I don’t care. Just give it to me."

Once I reached the funeral home
Reality started to sink in
The place was filled with guests
The preacher already started his sermon
I walked quickly to the front
Without looking left and right
I just wanted to be beside my family
Asked them what had happened
Told them that I was finally home

People said men shouldn’t cry
But I couldn’t help it
I should be giving comfort to my family
Yet, I was the one requiring comfort

The mourning continued throughout that week
It took some time before I realized
Dad has finished his earthly tasks
He is now completely healed
And God wants him to be by His side
Until we meet again in heaven
It is indeed God’s plan
A bigger plan…
A better plan…

Lord Jesus,
Please tell my dad up there
That his family miss him
That his family love him
That I love him…



it’s here, there, no matter where you go
over a promotion or a pay-raise

over someone’s love and affection

over gaining other people’s respect

Koukouseijealousynobody wants to but they feel it anyway
it cuts real deep, piercing the heart
losing grip, losing focus
consuming our heart, mind… soul…

suddenly it becomes very clear
what rights do you have to be jealous
when time and again we have made Him so
He who has all the rights – the "Jealous One"

thank You for the lesson learned
to give love and respect where they’re due
for once your heart filled with His love
jealousy will no longer reign


My Heart Will Trust

I’ll walk closer now on the higher way
Through the darkest night will You hold my hand
Jesus, guide my way

O You mourn with me and You dance with me
For my heart of hearts is bound to you

Though I walk through valleys low
I’ll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul
My heart will trust in You
My heart will trust in You

O You counsel me and You comfort me
When I cannot see You light my path

Though I walk through valleys low
I’ll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul
My heart will trust in You
My heart will trust in You

~Reuben Morgan~